When we try to pick out anything by itself we find that it is bound fast by a thousand invisible cords that cannot be broken, to everything in the universe.

John Muir

The act of picking something, and t doesn’t really matter what, often introduces an almost next level sense of “oh shit oh shit oh shit” that does not really benefit me or any of the things that I want/need to do. And I am fully aware of this. I have inhabited my brain for a long enough period of time to understand that it is often not on my side. It’s ignorant, obstinate, and has an annoying tendency to contemplate suicide. It’s disordered at times and makes connections both delightful in their novelty and painful in their absurdity. It has been with me through all the formative years, and then the reformative years, and now in the transformative years.

Teaching my mind how to not be an asshole is my life’s current major undertaking. Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day trying and failing and then trying again. As frustrating as this can be to say this is the better way to live my life and to share my life. So welcome and let’s walk side by side for a while.

❤ JS